I’m sorry for not putting up a proper post. A Gmarket haul post will definitely be up sometime this upcoming week – I just don’t really have the time and I’m not in the mood to do it. Something bad has come up – as much as I’d like to be positive about it, I’ve just had people telling me some really bad things. I’m at risk at losing a loved one, and all I can do now is hope that things turn for the better and that things can be a bit back to normal.
I find it really hard to make my decisions nowadays because I’ve only just started my new “career” (if you would like to call it that) and I really wanted to have a stable lifestyle. It was never really stable to begin with, but usually I just tried to ignore it and pretend that things weren’t so bad. As some of my friends know, I’ve actually dropped everything before – study, holidays, promises with friends – just so that I could be there. Unfortunately I have a bad feeling that I can’t do that anymore – I have to earn a living and life must go on – I can’t stop and drop everything. I could do it before, but I can’t now. I have too many responsibilities that I need to attend to.
Having said that, it doesn’t mean I’ll let go. As long as there’s hope I’ll grab onto it, I’ll work harder every day, but I can’t let it affect my work.
I’m really grateful for my job because I really like my workplace and my colleagues – thanks to their kind words of support and late night text messages I feel that I’m not so alone. I’m also lucky because I feel that if I had worked anywhere else, I wouldn’t be getting this much support.
I will have my fingers crossed and hope for the better.
As a side note, I’ve just been really tired lately. I had a late night tutoring session (it’s hard to describe but it was kinda awesome), and then the next day I was called at work to leave early. I spent a lot of the late hours at night then at the hospital so now I’m just dazed. This was a really packed week – I’m not sure… maybe you gain some and then you lose some. I don’t really know…